Time For Crutches

I haven't posted in here for a few weeks because nothing has really changed. It has now been eight weeks since that horrible run that has had me limping around, whining and complaining to anyone who will listen. As I had said before my IT band healed up completely but my hip continues to be very painful and won't let me run at all. Up until today I have been going to the gym regularly. While there I lift weights at use the elliptical machine. I began thinking that since so much time had passed maybe it would be good for me to start trying to build muscle around the hip. Last Friday I tried this and I have been in much worse pain ever since. I am thinking that building muscle probably is not the answer. So...like anyone who has something wrong with them and access to google, I decided to try and figure out what is going on in my irritatingly painful hip injury. What I came across as a likely answer is a hip stress fracture. I am keeping this internet diagnoses loosely as what is possibly going on. I am aware that the internet is not the best doctor.

I came across a list of three symptoms that if a patient has them then it is pretty much for sure a stress fracture and I have two...maybe three. The one that surprised me the most was that I cannot lie on my back and lift my leg while it is straight. I had no idea that I couldn't do that until I tried yesterday. Ouch. So I have decided to stop using my hip as much as possible. I am going to walk around on crutches and not do anything that aggravates it. Hopefully this will help. It will heal...eventually.

I wanted to mention that Tish would have been 38 this Friday. I will be raising my glass to her memory and keeping her in my heart where she always is. 

Bellingham Bay 5k

So as most of you know I did not get to participate in the Bellingham Bay Half Marathon as I had planned. Race day showed up and I was still limping and favoring my injured hip. I had pretty much decided to sit the race out but that wasn't sitting well with me as I really, really wanted to run. The day before the race I went to the race expo with Kristy and Jo to pick up our race shirts and numbers. It was an awesome expo! There were so many people there discussing the upcoming race, selling adorable running clothing and educating you on supplements and hydration aids. There was also an opportunity to enter to win entry into the Whistler Half Marathon in June. Of course now I am entered and have my fingers crossed! I was feeling very emotional at the expo because there were so many people that were excited for their race and I was just limping through the room trying not to think about not being able to run. One thing that I love about the running community is how positive and supportive they are. At the expo when people asked what race I was running and I had to respond that my injury had removed me from my race. These strangers all reminded me that it is part of being a runner and that it happens to all of us eventually. They made me realize that I am just doing what all runners eventually have to do. Rest and recover. It's not fun but I am not the first and won't be the last injured runner. On our way out of the expo I stopped at the Lake Padden Trail Half Marathon table. I talked with the person at the table (who turned out to be the helpful person who had answered my questions on the race facebook page a couple months ago!) and felt like crying when I informed him that I was signed up for his race but would probably not be able to run it. He was very supportive and optimistic. Maybe he's right and I will be able to run it...we'll see. Before leaving he had Maria Dalzot (a sponsored trail runner) autograph a hat for me. Everyone we came across at the expo were very friendly and helpful. 

The night before the race we celebrated Kristy's birthday and did our very best not to over eat or drink! Such great luck that we got to celebrate and run a race in the very same weekend! 

While I had said that I wouldn't be running I was still hopeful (as I have been every single day since getting injured) that I would wake up feeling good and ready to run. I tossed and turned all night. I dreamt of running, of the excitement of the race and woke up over and over feeling anxious and hopeful. Finally 6 a.m. showed up and Kristy's crazy scary alarm went off. Before getting up I was SO hopeful. After I got up I ignored the pain and tried my best to pretend it wasn't hurting at all. I put on my running clothes and hoped that no one was going to try and tell me that I couldn't or shouldn't do it. No one said anything about it and before we knew it the time had come to head out the door. Of course there was time for one quick photo.

We Run For Tish

When we got to the race we were about a half an hour early. It was chilly and windy but after the downpour we had experienced the day before we felt pretty good about our luck. We stood in the cold, with all of the other runners, and waited. I had decided that I was going to give it my best try. I was going to run until it hurt (too much) and then I was going to walk. I wanted to run with Kristy, Jo and Bryce so, so badly! As race time approached we began making our way to the starting line. Trav snapped a few photos of us. 

I'm Ready!

Starting line here we come! (Kristy is very happy about this!)

The race started moments later and we were off. It began with a few blocks of hills...This was not what Kristy had expected but she powered through them like a champ! Pretty much right away the rain started coming down. It was just in time for the race and continued through the WHOLE race! We were soaked!! Deep down I had thought that I would likely not be able to run more than a block. Right away I altered my run. Every time my right foot (the same side as my injured hip) hit the ground I landed only on my toe. This made for an interesting 3.1 miles but it worked. My hip was irritated but never too painful. The run was an out and back course that followed the road on the way out and a trail next to the road on the way back. This was really helpful for keeping the scenery interesting. Different is always better. Jo pulled ahead of us early in the race and kept a short distance in front of us throughout the run. Bryce, Kristy and I ran together until we were a couple blocks from the finish line. Bryce had asked early on in the race if he could sprint to the finish line when he saw it and I told him that he could. As soon as he saw it he was off!!

We watched as Jo approached the finish line and were so excited for her!

Not far behind her we quickly approached the finish line. The announcer told us to get our victory high fives.

 All the high fives!

We did it! All of Kristy and Jo's hard work and training had finally paid off! Bellingham Bay 5k...DONE! Kristy's accomplishment was extra special as it was her very first 5k! I am so glad that we were all able to do this race together!! 

Happy faces after the race (that's a pretzel sticking out of Bryce's mouth...he was enjoying the post-race food!)

So we did it. We finished the 5k and for the next 2 days I hobbled around on very, very sore calves and feet. Now as I start to feel recovered from 3.1 miles of bad running form I am hopeful that I will be able to run without a limp again soon. Today marks one month since I injured myself. It has been a long, emotional month. I am not used to having no choice but to not run. Not only that, but to not be able to get any cardio exercise for most of this month was really hard. I am not going to lie, there were many times when I felt like breaking down and crying and a few times that I did just that. As I heal (very, very slowly) I am able to use the elliptical machine at the gym. 

My plan is to use this often and for longer and longer periods of time. Hopefully by doing this when I am finally able to run again my legs and lungs will be ready to jump right back in and endure longer runs. We'll see. The Lake Padden Trail Half that I am signed up for is only 17 days away. I am hopeful that I will be able to run it but I also realize that this may not be possible. 17 days isn't very much time and only running 3.1 miles (with a limp) in the past 30 days, and not currently being able to run (without a limp) isn't promising training. Unfortunately for me races do not refund your money if you are injured. I am beginning to feel very foolish to have signed up for 2 half marathons so close together. This injury is becoming quite expensive!! I have been researching other possible half marathons to sign up for (after my injury is completely healed!). I will decide on which when I am able to run again. 

For now I am just proud to say that we finished a 5k together, for Tish. 

23 Days To Go

Time goes by so, so quickly! There are only 23 more days until the Bellingham Bay Half Marathon or if you think about it like I do, 2 more long training runs and a taper week. I felt like this was a good time to update you all on my training progress. I have been running around 20-30 miles per week with one long run on Wednesdays. I have been adding on between 1-2 miles to my long run each week and Wednesday before last I was up to 10.3 miles. Not quite half marathon distance but I was feeling a little more confident! Yesterday was a little bit of a setback. I had been suffering from Illiotibial Band Syndrome , or IT band syndrome, for a few days and should have known better than to go for a long run. If you are lucky enough never have experienced this it is a very irritating and painful injury and is really good at halting your training run efforts. Because of this my long run yesterday only amounted to (a very uncomfortable and at the end downright painful) 8.25 miles. I should have rested but I am not always good at doing what I should do. I paid for it with an evening of excruciating pain any time I had to walk (hobble) anywhere in my house. Fortunately I have very understanding and supportive guys in my house. Bryce did the laundry for me so I didn't have to go up and down the stairs and Trav helped me massage out some of the tension that had built up in my leg and hip. I am lucky to have them! Today after using the foam roller to massage it and stretching it as much as possible I am feeling almost normal...will definitely be taking at least another day off to help it heal properly!

During my last long run (not yesterday's catastrophe) I was thinking about how training for a half marathon is so much more than just physical training. The mental training is just as important and on race day might prove to be even more important than the strength and endurance of my body. During every run, and numerous times during my long runs, I start to question what I have gotten myself into. Why am I out here exhausted, aching, sweaty, hot and thirsty but still running? This is when my mental strength gets a workout. This is where I remind myself what I am doing and why. For me Running For Tish is all about living life to the fullest, pushing myself to the limit and feeling alive. Tish taught me how precious life is and how short it can be. She taught me to keep my loved ones close and remind them how special and important they are to me. She also taught me to keep going, push forward and just keep running. I believe that it would be hard to find a moment that you feel more alive than you do at about 7 miles into a long run. Your sweating, aching body is questioning your sanity and wondering if you are serious about running "a few more miles". You feel every breeze and smell the world around you with intensity. This is usually wonderful as the most common smells during my runs are the ocean or the rain (I do love the northwest). Occasionally this can be not so wonderful like when you run by a group of smokers or have a giant truck drive past leaving behind a not so awesome trail of exhaust. It is a good feeling to know that you can (and will) keep running. The best part of any run is finishing. The sense accomplishment (paired with all of those endorphins you released) is a very wonderful thing and is often the drive to keep running or to get out there the next day and do it all over again! If you just keep going you will make it to the end of your run and enjoy your own little celebration of accomplishment. Often on long runs Dory from Finding Nemo pops into my head and repeats "just keep swimming, just keep swimming", I don't know why but it seems appropriate and motivating while I am struggling through the longer runs.

One other thing that I would like to mention is that two of my very favorite ladies have signed up and are training for the Bellingham Bay 5k. Jo who would be my Aunt in law and Kristy who would be my sister in law if of course Trav and I were married. That is a whole different story and all that matters is that they are family and I love my family! It will be Kristy's first 5k ever and I am very excited for her! I was lucky enough to run Jo's first 5k with her a couple years ago and am super excited that she is making a running comeback!! They have been running and training and are going to rock the 5k! Bryce will be running with them as well. He is very excited! I am proud to add them to the Running For Tish roster!

Jo (left) and Kristy (right) 

Jo and I after her first 5k in 2010

Bryce after finishing a run